Okay, you know those days when it feels like the world is caving in around you. Everything you touch breaks. Everything you try to do goes wrong. The emotions are out of whack and you truly want to go to bed and try again.
Welcome to the life of a mom. At least that is where I am right now. For those of you who don’t know me personally, we are expecting Baby #4 in November. That means that I have just crossed into the “honeymoon” trimester and out of the “survival” trimester…or so it is supposed to be. Although we are very excited to meet this new bundle of joy, I am not a good pregnant lady. I get seriously large (probably something to do with the half-grown children that I birth!) and just don’t feel well. I can’t remember anything and cry at the drop of a hat. I lose my cool and don’t think very rationally. This is very out of character for me. If you are a Type A, you totally get this.
So after another sleepless night filled with three bathroom breaks, I broke down. (My poor husband!) The enemy is hitting me hard right now with thoughts of inadequacy, feeling ugly, and spiraling out of control. Everything that I am praying about right now is reaping nothing but frustration.
After my cry-fest, I took some time to take care of me. A shower does wonders! Then I spent some time reading my Bible. Ephesians 1 is where I am right now in my QT. Every time that I read a promise today, I substituted my name in the verse. Wow… Then I wrote down those promises in my journal. I literally felt my cup being filled as God’s promises washed over me.
This doesn’t mean that the enemy isn’t still on a hot pursuit for my mind. But he can not have this heart. God has sealed it with the blood of Jesus. Today, I am going to fill my mind with these truths:
– I am a daughter of The King.
– I am beautiful and created in God’s image.
– I am filled with the power of God. The same power that raised Christ from the dead and placed Him at God’s right hand.
Been there? Or are you there now? Drink with me and feast on the promises that God has given us.
Poor thing! Hugs from S.C.!
Been there and will surely be there again! Thanks for the encouragement. You are one amazing daughter of the King!
Love this. Praying for you, and I got chills as you said you felt your cup filling up…that is beautiful:)
Believe me I understand! I'm not even pregnant yet I face this every day. It seems caring for a special needs child (a very strong-willed one at that) while caring for an infant is HARD WORK and my mind seems to feel the brunt of it!